Mommy Musings

* It was hard waking up at 6:20 this morning after getting to sleep in 'till 7 all last week. That 40 minute difference is kicking my butt!

* I told Hubby that working out once a week is nice, but not enough. He said I can start working out at the club house gym twice a week and I want to start tomorrow. I just don't know how we will work it around G's evening nap and Hubby's schedule. But losing more of this baby weight is important to me. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror carrying G last night. I still look pregnant and I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. Plus my sister is getting married in June and I'd like to look good!

* A couple friend of ours threw a party for their baby's first birthday yesterday. G was awesome with the crowed. I, on the other hand, was not. There was a 10 year old who insisted that shoving toys in G's face, shaking rattles in his face, throwing balloons at his head, and piling toys on top of him was okay because G "was bored." It took everything in me not to go postal on this kid. Hubby and I have no idea who the kid belonged to and G was one of about 8 babies at this party; what this kid's fascination with G was is still any one's guess. I was ready to leave within the hour we got there, after I got walked in on by one of our friend's mothers just after I had finished nursing G. It was hot, it was crowded, and although G seemed happy once he nursed a bit, I felt overwhelmed.

* Said party would have been more tolerable if 1) I wasn't weening off my meds and 2) it wasn't for the baby who would have been 2 weeks older than our little girl. I started crying when everyone started singing "Happy Birthday" because I couldn't help but think we would have been doing that in another couple of weeks if I didn't lose G's big sister.

* I may not get to plan a First Birthday party (yet), but we will be celebrating G's birthday with cake tonight. Yay Cake!

* After the party over the weekend I am not sure what I want to do for G's first birthday, invite-wise. My in-laws will probably want to do something. I have panic attacks when the two families get together so I'm not sure about just family. I'd love a party with just our friends and their kids, but then family may get hurt. I hate crowds so I'm not sure about a party with family and friends. I still have some time to think about it...

* Speaking of friends, one of Hubby's friends told his sister-in-law I had a cerclage. Which I hadn't. Said SIL came to me for comfort and advice over the weekend. Which I couldn't. She was misinformed and I feel awful about it. Does anyone know of fellow bloggers who have blogged about having one and went on to have a take home baby? If so, please let me know!

* I started taking my Happy Pill every other day last Wednesday. I think that explains my moodiness and breakdowns over the weekend. We will see what happens at work this week. Everyone annoyed me today but I don't know if I'm still frustrated over the happenings from the weekend or if I'm going backwards emotionally or if I'm PMSing or what!

* Bio Liners for cloth diapers = AMAZING! I'm far less grossed out changing G's poopy diapers now.

* G started solids a month ago and lemme tell you. I miss breastfed poop! I never thought I'd say something like that -- ever. But it's true!

* I'll be posting my Memorable Moment later tonight -- I promise that will be more enjoyable than this post. I just needed to get some of these things off my chest. If you made it this far: thank you for reading!!